Hi, my name is Karen and I am 39 years old.  I can't keep up anymore with money and life.  I worked 2 jobs both full time, except one only lasted 6 months out of the year.  I was let go from one of my jobs, for no good reason and now I can not make ends meet.  I have been a very strong person from age 5.  I have had a lot of detramental things happen since age 5 and it is all caching up to me now and being short of money and not making ends meet is just extra added stress in my life. I don't have my parents or sister here anymore to help me through this trying time of my life.  I am at my witts end.  I just want to be able to wake up every morning not having to worry about money to pay bills so I can start healing myself from my childhood years and the death of my family. I just want to be a normal and happy person in the inside.  I hate pretending to the world everyday that I am a happy person when I am really dying inside. I live in a small community and the jobs are hard to come by. Any help out there or advice.  Please let me know. I'm not afraid of challanges but this one really has knocked me down that for once I have to ask for help. Thank you for your help.

I have always helped everyone around me even when I couldn't afford it.  I help all the elderly on my block, mowing lawns, snow removal and what ever they can't do I will do it.  I do this because of my parents and what they went thru when they died, and because it makes me happy to lift the burdons off of there shoulders.  When my friends are in trouble with decisions in life or arguments with their spouses, watching their children, or even just helping them with everday things I am there. I am a hard working person and honest.  I just wish I could trust people but, I can't and that hurts me deeply. Sometimes other people actions can really hurt deep enough to affect my life.